Disorganization

As I sit here, writing this post, I am looking around at my very disorganized surroundings. My house is a disaster! It isn't necessarily dirty, just in disarray.. There is no sense of order at the moment, and it is wreaking havoc on my OCD. The house is under construction, there are walls where the sheetrock is gone, the kitchen floor has been ripped out, and most of the areas dedicated to organization are not able to be accessed. I cannot help but get overwhelmed when I look around.

I am usually pretty good at making due with what I am given. For some reason, I cannot find that happy medium... UGH!! I know that within the next few weeks I will have a beautiful new kitchen, and an awesome  new floor, but right now all I can think about it the mess. I am not even sure where to start, or if I should even try! There is literally shit everywhere. There are coats in the hallway, boxes in the living room, and my china is in a tote on the floor.. It is killing me!!

All week while I was at work I thought about all the ways to "fix" the disorganization. I made a list and came up with clever ways to minimize the chaos. Well, here I am, on my day off and there isn't an ounce of motivation in my body to do so. Granted, I have an appointment with the Endodontist this morning, which could very well be reason for lazy attitude.

I have been trying really hard to adjust to working. Fitting it into my other roles in life. It has been challenging, and I really am optimistic that it will fall into place, but on days like this I feel a little beaten. Usually I have my house cleaned, dinner situated and my head on straight. Lately, the laundry has been piling up (a chore I loathe anyway) dinner is half assed, and I am frazzled.  In times like this I guess it is important for me to just take it one day at a time, and keep my head up.. I can't give up! (But damn, this is difficult!) My confidence is a little squashed , but not completely absent. Just another day where I have to put my big girl pants on and deal! I really need to invest in another pair of BGP since mine are wearing a little thin these days!