Ignorance is Bliss

I am an unfortunate person. I would like to think that my intelligence is what makes me so. Have you ever noticed that the happiest of people are more likely to be the dumbest? Now, please do not think I am implying that if you are happy you are stupid, that is not what I mean. I simply think that the more knowledge you possess, the more you over analyze things.

I tend to hold onto information..( a lot which is useless) and it has a tendency to stimulate unhealthy thinking. Ideas that the unexpected can happen at any moment. The line between possible and probable disappears, and everything has a consequence or some sort of significance. I have also noticed that the majority of people who suffer from anxiety are also some of the most intelligent.

Experience also plays a factor. I have witnessed, been through and heard of things that have scared the living shit out of me. Crazy scenarios where if you weren't there, you would never have believed. Events that have left an imprint on my memory, and scarred  blemished my thoughts. A simple task turned tragic, or an unbelievable turn of events leading to some sort of demise.

It is amusing to me how a person can learn, gain awareness, and comprehend new ideas, but one cannot unlearn such things. I wish there was a way to forget the awful impressions. A way to forget the knowledge that invades my thoughts and heightens my fears. Wouldn't it be lovely to erase all of the crappy memories we retain?

As contradicting as this may sound, I want to be smart and ignorant at the same time. Hahah. If that was only possible. Having the best of both worlds.. SIGH.. Guess I will just have to deal with it. I can't help but wonder how Albert Einstien did it?  I know he believed that imagination was more important than knowledge. What a great way to think! Now, if I could just get my imagination to be more positive, I should be on the right track! That is my goal for today!